Another year comes to a close. 2018, you were a whirlwind, but you taught me that perseverance makes you stronger.
This year my life took a pretty major shift. I went from living the college kid life to living the unemployed college grad life in matter of months. I'm usually pretty open to change, and am used to dealing with uncertainties, but after I graduated, I felt like my world was turned upside down. It felt like I'd gone from having a purpose to having no purpose at all. So, for the last seven months, I've retired to the hermit life and am quite literally trying to find my purpose in life.
Being a student obviously has its ups and downs, but in a lot of ways it's an easy existence. I used to have an identity; something to fall back on. And now, I of course still have an identity (that's a whole other story haha), but nothing to fall back on. I don't know where I'll end up or what I'll be doing; an uncertainty that I have full control over changing. This has been both motivating and stressful. It would be so easy for me to feel sorry for myself, as I'm living in a place I hate and my cat seems to be my only friend (don't get me wrong, he's great), but I've learned to be honest with myself and to take my life into my own hands. As long as I know that I'm doing my best that's all that matters.
The search for my purpose in life has been long and strenuous, but I've been really lucky to have supportive friends and family around me to keep me from going crazy. It's been a real privilege to spend time with people I didn't get to see much while in school and more recently, reconnect with those I hadn't seen since graduating.
It's both scary and exciting that I don't really know what the future holds, but I'm looking forward to seeing where life takes me. And, for that I say, Thank U (2018), Next.
This year my life took a pretty major shift. I went from living the college kid life to living the unemployed college grad life in matter of months. I'm usually pretty open to change, and am used to dealing with uncertainties, but after I graduated, I felt like my world was turned upside down. It felt like I'd gone from having a purpose to having no purpose at all. So, for the last seven months, I've retired to the hermit life and am quite literally trying to find my purpose in life.
Being a student obviously has its ups and downs, but in a lot of ways it's an easy existence. I used to have an identity; something to fall back on. And now, I of course still have an identity (that's a whole other story haha), but nothing to fall back on. I don't know where I'll end up or what I'll be doing; an uncertainty that I have full control over changing. This has been both motivating and stressful. It would be so easy for me to feel sorry for myself, as I'm living in a place I hate and my cat seems to be my only friend (don't get me wrong, he's great), but I've learned to be honest with myself and to take my life into my own hands. As long as I know that I'm doing my best that's all that matters.
The search for my purpose in life has been long and strenuous, but I've been really lucky to have supportive friends and family around me to keep me from going crazy. It's been a real privilege to spend time with people I didn't get to see much while in school and more recently, reconnect with those I hadn't seen since graduating.
It's both scary and exciting that I don't really know what the future holds, but I'm looking forward to seeing where life takes me. And, for that I say, Thank U (2018), Next.
Happy New Year!! 🎊
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